it's overwhelming, but what else can we do? get jobs in offices and wake up for the morning commute?

we go to school for thirteen years. for a lot of those years we look forward to being adults and finally finishing high school. we go to uni and get a job and spend a lot of our days looking forward to four weeks of holidays a year and look back fondly on the days when we had two weeks off every fourteen weeks and a whole summer to spend on the beach.

there are some things i miss about school and some things i am glad are long gone. at the moment i could think of nothing better than only having the commitment of school between 8.40am and 3.30pm and feeling like i was really achieving something.

i am in a job at the moment that it is slowly killing me inside. i feel like my blood boils from 8.30am to 5pm and i am made to feel worthless. i have always had trouble with anxiety and am currently taking medication for it but even that's not enough when it comes to going to work. i am treated like a complete idiot. thankfully i can remember that i've always been recognised in the past for my proactiveness, intelligence and common sense although i often wonder for how long those memories can get me through the day.

my boyfriend gives me a world of support but people can only listen to their loved ones' pain and suffering for so long. i need to get a new job before i really start to believe i am as useless and unintelligent as i am treated.